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[Jul. 2nd, 2010|11:05 am] |
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| |  anxious | ] |
| [ | Tunes |
| | Ne-Yo | ] |
Things have been a lot better now.
This kid is so amazing, and I hope he does give me a chance.
Looking forward to the weekend!
Interview in a few hours.
:) |
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| (no subject) |
[Jun. 9th, 2010|04:09 pm] |
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| |  depressed | ] |
I didn't realize how much I missed you until I saw a picture of you with your family. And your girlfriend. And I started crying.
Maybe I don't miss you, I just miss everything about you. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jun. 6th, 2010|04:36 am] |
| [ | Emotion |
| |  restless | ] |
I am made of secrets. |
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| (no subject) |
[May. 11th, 2010|01:57 am] |
| [ | Emotion |
| |  lonely | ] |
| [ | Tunes |
| | Orgy | ] |
I'm so scared to fall for you... because I don't want to hurt you.
The last few, I didn't care. They meant nothing to me.
I could have hurt them both even more, and I would feel no remorse.
Guilt is something I rarely feel.
I barely know you, and you mean so much to me already.
I don't want to fuck up like I did a year ago.
That day still haunts me.
Every word he said still lingers in my thoughts every single damn day.
I can't do this to myself again. |
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| The feeling never fades. |
[May. 8th, 2010|03:56 pm] |
| [ | Emotion |
| |  peaceful | ] |
I always feel lost these days, but I hang on.
It's been well over a year, and the time has gone by so quickly.
But I still miss you more and more every day.
Seeing you was wonderful.
Holding your hand under the table made my heart skip a beat.
Walking next to you, talking about our weeks.
Yet, walking away is the hardest thing I've ever had to do.
Each time I leave, I can't help but tear up.
Seeing you watch me leave takes a piece of my heart out.
But I've been strong, for you.
I wish my hand was in yours forever. |
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| (no subject) |
[Apr. 30th, 2010|12:07 pm] |
| [ | Emotion |
| |  aggravated | ] |
Everyone has their way of doing what they think "feels right."
Whenever I do this, I end up in a horrible situation.
In the end, I only end up hurting someone.
I hate having boyfriends.
I always choose the really shitty ones and regret it two weeks later.
I miss long term relationships that actually worked.
I'm tired of this bullshit and wasting my time with stupid, sappy, lying idiots. |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 7th, 2010|12:57 pm] |
| [ | Emotion |
| |  contemplative | ] |
| [ | Tunes |
| | Theory of a Deadman | ] |
I miss you so much.
Sure, I may have wanted to marry someone else, but I haven't stopped loving you since the day I left.
I know it was probably weird hearing from me after so long, but I had to see how you were doing.
I love our conversations about nothing, and I love the fact that you're happy.
She is good for you, she puts a smile on your face.
Even though you're not with me, you'll still always be mine.
Maybe one day, again, I will have a chance. |
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| (no subject) |
[Sep. 30th, 2008|10:18 pm] |
| [ | Emotion |
| |  optimistic | ] |
I always end up falling for the horrible guys haha.
and I fall too fast for my own brain to catch up.
oops.
:) |
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| (no subject) |
[Sep. 8th, 2008|11:03 pm] |
| [ | Emotion |
| | angry | ] |
I still regret the decision I made. (Why would I leave someone I was madly in love with...??? I'm still fucking wondering!!!)
It was a stupid one, and I blame a single guy.
The one who is the reason why I fell in love with someone else, and at the same time part of me became attached to him.
He is a first class fuck up, and I don't know what happened.
He uses excuses to keep me on a string, because I know exactly what he uses me for -- in fact, he owes me -- and I know he doesn't give a shit about me.
I didn't expect him to say what he did, when his roommate was away and we were on the couch.
I didn't believe it, and I still don't.
But, for some reason, I listen to what he has to say, I take his advice, and I follow on the false hope I have that one day it will work.
But there will always be the same age difference. |
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 1st, 2008|02:15 am] |
| [ | Emotion |
| |  determined | ] |
I work my ass off everyday just to look even remotely as good as you do.
You eat like a complete fat ass, and if I stray off my diet I might as well give up.
I've dropped 15+ pounds but I don't see it, and I won't stop working my ass off until I do see a difference.
Dumb ass skinny bitches talking like they're huge... fuck you. |
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